Deftonesin laulaja kertoo vaikeuksistaan kokaiinin kanssa: ”Yhtyeemme oli hajoamisen partaalla”
Deftonesin laulaja Chino Moreno on antanut hiljattain Teamrockille varsin kattavan haastattelun liittyen yhtyeen menneisyyteen. Chino on haastattelussa avautunut omista ongelmistaan kokaiinin kanssa ja kertonut samassa yhtyeen uineen varsin syvissä vesissä aina ”White Pony” -albumin julkaisusta ”Saturday Night Wrist” -levyn tekemiseen asti. Voit lukea Chinon ajatuksia yhtyeen rankimmista ajoista tästä:
“I had a fucking huge drug problem at that time, which caused a lot of my vocal problems. You get to that age and everything was so easy cos I didn’t pay attention to shit, and then all of a sudden I’m dealt with reality, all this shit has accumulated, my life has become really fucked up because I ignored everything for so long. And instead of picking up the pieces I just ran away from everything. I blamed everybody else instead of looking back at myself. So I had to slowly learn how to take responsibility for myself. But everybody was doing that individually. We were very dysfunctional.”
“We didn’t start doing hard drugs until when we started making White Pony, but at that point everything was pretty new so we were able to sort of maintain what we were doing. But we got off that run and we got home, and everything escalated. Everyone went to their own seedy worlds, and that was the start of it.”
Kysyttäessä oliko kysymyksessä kokaiini kertoi Chino seuraavaa:
“Yeah, it was cocaine, and it was easy. For some reason everyone was taking it at the time. And it wasn’t just on the road, then you start doing it when you’re at home, and that’s like a no-win situation. Luckily we were able to come out of it, but it took a long time to figure it out, like, I’m doing this to myself. And it’s a total cliché, every band has been through this shit, but instead of learning from other people’s mistakes, some of the things you just gotta figure out the hard way.”
“That was a long time. That lasted through the whole dark days, from that record [White Pony], the self-titled, right through the Saturday Night Wrist record. We got to a point where we were like a shell of ourselves, of what we used to be as a band. And that depresses you and that gets you even deeper into the hole. A lot of it was my environment as well. I was hanging around the same set of friends who were doing the same shit every day.
And I moved to Los Angeles and I had a moment of clarity, like what the fuck was I doing? And from that day I just decided I was never going to do that shit again. I was very lucky, I didn’t have to go through rehab or anything like that. At that point I just made that decision that I would never be that cliché again. Honestly, it wasn’t that hard. Everything started to come into focus and get better, it only affirmed that yes, that was what was causing it.”